all about 30/7/11

early morning i online, 
go and see something...
and then, 
feel so hurt again...
why i so "hand itchy" want to open it and see..
already know sure will get hurt but still want to do and see that..
haiz..


morning saw a msg on my phone, i felt kinda happy..
but then it makes me disappointed.. 
because it was just a msg from 2900 to inform me that today is last day..
hmm.. although today still can use, but useless too..
no people will msg me also..


today mum cut my hair..
because chinese July is coming.. 
today is last day before July so today cut it..
i feel sad when see mum cut like this.. 
i don't like.. 
but then what to do wor?
hmm.. i take scissors to "edit" it..
afternoon, mum cut for my bro, then he not satisfy,
i help to "edit"...
but feel so stress because if become worse, i tiok cham liao..


just now go to pray at outside flat,
when i stand there, an black ant come and bite me.. 
no wonder so pain... =(
suddenly i think of last time got insect bite me till very pain,
and i was msg him and told him... 
and he comfort me, feel good at that time..
hmm.. ah.. what i thinking about.. 
STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Keat Hong, don't ever think about this kind of thing anymore..
don't suffer yourself... 


i find out that i not really know how to wear slipper..
and also don't know how to wear slipper to walk..
because whenever i wear slipper and walk,
sure will feel weird.. 
i not so like slipper.. 


i don't like tonight's dinner.. 
because mum cook ladies finger which i don't like eh..
hate it nia..


i plan to study today, but i fail again..
gai liao.. i not yet start study although tuesday start exam..
omg.. omg... 
i want study.. 
but no mood.. haiz.. 
early morning feel so hurt.. no mood to study.. 
just now go and see something which makes me feel more hurt..
hate myself why want to go and see that.. 
haiz... 


i must think something that can make me not so down.. 
hmm.. songs!!!
think of afternoon my computer shuffle an english,
<Damaged> by Shayne Ward..
this song i love it already when i first time listen..


it's time to imagine.. 
hmm.. 
imagine that,
when my beloved holds my hand and walk slowly at seaside.. 
imagine that, 
when my beloved and me lies on a clean ground and looking at the stars together..
imagine that,
when ...........................
hmm..it's so nice..
ok la.. 
stop imagine liao..
hope tonight got people wish me good night.. 
although it won't happen eh.. 
just wish nia mah.. never mind eh.. 


hmm.. when can i start study leh? 
stupid! idiot! 
i know i sure will fail in this coming exam eh..
sorry mum that i am going to disappointed u..
sorry bro that although u prove to mum that 
sit in front computer everyday also can get good result,
but i can't.. 
haiz..