all about 27/7/11

today, finally i completed my maths chapter 6 exercises..

teacher said temporary will not enter chapter 7, wait after exam first..

when recess time, i bought that bread again..

then again, my friend ask me "this bread again ah.. won't eat till sien meh?"

why i said "again"? it is because she asked me not the first time already..

seem everyday she will ask me that..

but actually, i think the cheapest bread at canteen is just this kind eh nia..

so that is why..... 

then she ask us want go eat ice-cream boh,

hmm.. i want!! but hor.. it's raining wor..

so cold already.. ko eat ice-cream meh?

myself already cold till become ice liao, then put some cream on me, 

those who want eat ice-cream eh can come to eat me already.. 

wahahaha... 

say truly, suddenly rain makes me feel soooooo cold.. 

i really hope can switch off the fan, but impossible eh..

since that not only me at there.. 

no jacket also.. then what to do wor...

tahan lo.. haiz.. 

after recess was ah sam class..

his favourite random number again..

he likes to use calculator to get random numbers to ask us answer questions..

today he wan we give eh answer is about theory, 

when kena Shab, she give eh answer was my answer..

omg.. she copy my whole answer..

when she borrow from me, YN and me also told her that just part (c),

but she copy my theory part also and use that to answer..

i was thinking what if kena me?

what should i answer since that she used my answer already..

should i say "same with her" or what?

but if really happen, for sure also have to stand because unable to give new answer eh..

but luckily, what i worry about didn't happen...

they pass a paper which is about donate blood, 

CY ask me want or not, 

then i ask her "i can meh?"

then YN said "seem u already lack of blood"..

wahahaha... am i look like a girl that not enough blood?

hmm.. maybe gua..

and as what i know during NS, if not mistaken, 

body weight less than 45kg eh can't donate blood..

hmm.. i think my weight not reach 45kg, just near nia, if i didn't become fat..

and my mum sure won't allow also.. she sure will say i can't..

she will say that myself already not enough blood but then how to donate?

ah boh she will say that i will pengsan eh..

i admit what she say maybe is true..

last 2 period teacher go for rehearsal,

so no teacher in class,

then WX came in and ask who didn't go prom night,

and he ask us why don't want go..

hmm.. can i straight say no money? 

but mostly people won't accept this reason as no people understand my condition..

but then he said that didn't go eh also have to pay at least RM10 and better RM20,

for donation and support..

and said that better go..

hmm.. siao eh... can i don't want to pay? 

hmm..

today my class no tutorial, but then i still have to stay, since that teacher ask me go..

but i nothing to do during the time that other people was having tutorial..

i stay at class, whole class just left me alone nia.. haiz..

i do maths that teacher gave..

chapter 1, got 2 questions don't know how to do,

chapter 2, still on the way, but then also don't know how to do..

then the other chapter eh sure can't solve liao..

i want to ask people teach me, but, who?

haiz..

hmm.. people go there for competition, i go there do nothing..

i am ping pong club's member meh?

i really wonder, since that they never take me as a member..

when do something that is compulsory to members,

they didn't consider me also..

and this is what i feel disappointed..

is it so hard to consider me? hmm.. maybe.. to them..

and one thing i feel upset is, 

there are brainless people that do not care about other's feeling..

when my friend SY, vs ZL,

ZL is so famous and have so many "fans" that support her..

and i saw it clearly about, they were too OVER!!

they never care about SY's feeling..

i am just an outsider but i feel upset and and angry about what they done..

i admit that my friend not really know how to play ping pong,

but then i feel that they not suppose to do that..

no matter what happen, 

when SY fail to hit back the ball, 

when SY fail to hit the ball over the net,

when SY fail to pick up the ball as the ball will "jump",

when SY hit back the ball too high, 

or what ZL win, 

all people around that table sure will laugh,

but the laugh till so loud..

if it was just beginning, it still ok, but then it was their whole competition..

i feel wanna go there and say "can u all please stop to do that?"

but i not dare.. 

i hate myself for being so useless and let them continue to laugh my friend..

they was too over..

they never think that what if they same like SY one day,

will they will happy that all people around laugh on them so loud?

actually i feel nothing about LY,

but after today, i feel kinda not so like her..

because when got 1 people said that team was funny,

LY told her that "u see this group, more funny.."

hmm.. well.. i know she is pro in badminton and ping pong and maybe other else..

but should her said like that?

why does people won't care about others' feeling?

is it care about others' feeling is so hard till they can't make it?

no matter what happen,

i will always think that what if i am the person..

what will i feel if others do that on me..

if i will feel sad or negative, then i won't do that on others..

how good if all people can think about others' feeling before doing something..

after that we go wait bus, 

wait till rain.. haiz..

that is what i hate the most..

when i reach home, almost 4:30pm already..

then i look at my phone, hmm..

as usual, disappointed, but never mind, used to it..

i feel don't wanna eat although very hungry..

i just want to take a bath then only eat..

my bro say i will like it, hmm..

it's true, because is my bro cook eh, no garlic mah..

sure i love it la..

actually today got things that make me kinda down and hurt.. 

hmm.. but feel don't wanna to say.. 

not every pain also can speak out..

forget it.. forget it.. forget it.. forget it.. forget it.. forget it.. forget it.. 

SH told me that she feel that i am kinda down today also..

but YN said she didn't feel like that, she said i seem ok..

hmm.. what can i say? i tell them nothing on me..

maybe, SH really know what people think and she can know what kind of a person is..

as what she said to me last year, 

him, maybe that time was really loves me much,

but he won't loves me last long..

when she told me that, i not really care about it,

because i believe him, 

so that time i say to myself i will prove to her that we will last forever,

happily and sweetly..

but finally i fail... what she told me had became the truth..

well, next tuesday start exam,

but truly that i not yet touch my book, not yet start, 

just feel no mood to study, no motivation to move me on..

and i don't understand also.. 

don't know what should i do.. haiz..

just saw some quotes,

"if a person really wants to see u, they will make a way and nothing in the world would stop them."

hmm.. it's true..

and if a person don't want to see u, they will let u can't see them no matter how hard u try..

"if a person got heart to do something, all problem won't be problem,

but if a person no heart to do it, no problem will also be a problem.."

this is what i feel so i write it.. i feel that it is so true..

"when there is no expectation, and won't feel disappointed.."

"Love is like two persons holding a rubber band, 

the one who hurt will always be the one who do not let it go..."

hmm...