early morning, he came to my class to find his friend,
i try to solve the maths which i don't know how to do
but yestersay saw CY's answer liao eh.
hmm.. don't know why, i feel good that when he was here..
feel warm, feel good, but just don't know why i felt that..
hmm.. know that his leg pain,
i hope i can do something, but what can i do?
i hope can take care him, but i know impossible.. and he also won't want..
ask him take care himself? but how do i gonna say that?
hmm.. i rather the pain is on me but not him..
or.. maybe.. got people take care him already? hmm..
i accompany YN go find Mr.Chew..
hmm.. whenever YN find teacher, sure is Mr.Chew eh..
but the door was close mean teacher not yet reach school,
so we wait at there, till 7:2Xam then YN said saw tiok his car liao..
but no time to talk, so we just go to assembly field first..
first and second period was maths, she gave us 2 questions,
but we use 2 period to done 1 question.. erm.. nonono..
should say i use 2 period to finish half question,
then another half is copy from JW after maths period eh..
then SH said question 2 wait JW do liao borrow us, and said her maths good,
then she answer that is her sifu teach well..
oh... erm... hmm... ................ ok..
maths paper 1 has 8 chapter, the chapter that i like are chapter 1, 2 and 4..
because at least i know a bit.. then the rest all i don't know.. haiz.. how wor..
then during muet, they used it to celebrate CH's birthday,
actually is yesterday but don't have cake, so delay to today..
and today is JF the culprit's birthday, so at the same time celebrate with JF too..
Ms.Rajenee keep asking CH to do speaking,
then teacher suddenly said it's cold, and ask to switch off fan..
so 4 fans were close but my place eh fan is still on..
i was thinking that why don't want close this?
because i really feel cold...
then when i saw that whole gang was preparing the cake, i understand it..
hmm.. seem like just that gang were celebrating birthday,
because the rest of us still sit at our place and doing our own things..
then when agnes takes cake for me,
i not yet say thanks but she put on my table then walk away already..
i don't know why i so mind about i didn't say thanks..
i told SH, she said that agnes won't mind eh..
but i told her i mind.. and i ask her should i say thanks to her later?
she said can but maybe agnes will just feel funny..
hmm.. never mind, feel funny or laugh also never mind,
at least i done what i suppose to do..
then when agnes pass by, SH call her and then i say thanks to her,
then she feel blur blur, so i explain, then she laugh and say nothing eh..
then SH told me "u see? i said already, funny"
hmm.. never mind, at least my heart feel better..
hmm.. if want our class to combine together, it is IMPOSSIBLE eh..
because minimum sure will exists 2 gang..
overall is,
1 gang is 12 of left hand side eh + 3 of center behind eh + maybe center front eh.
then another gang will be is,
center eh 2 rows + right hand side eh..
whatever la.. left few months only..
today YN ask JW why the class page eh photo look so formal,
then JW say can't fit if do the other way.. ok then..
SH ask that why all is school uniform but only one is other eh,
then JW said that was gathering..
i ask when eh, she said was during June, celebrate YP's birthday..
SH ask who went, JW said her, that whole gang, and other class eh,
hmm.. ok...
then it not suppose to be in U6A1's class page,
because it's not about our class.. isn't it?
whatever..
when recess, i felt very hungry, but i didn't eat anything..
then SH and me at center of form 6 building, she say she want to see car,
Alza wor.....
but actually she want to say something to me..
she said that she feel down...
because of what friends said...
as when my "dad" saw tiok SH, then will ask her about prom night..
she told me that her friend also always ask her what she wear, and blah blah blah..
seem like tease or satire her..
she said something that they said to her,
then ask my opinion on what i feel they talking about.
i don't know how should i answer..
i ask her want my straight answer? she said yup..
so i said maybe they will like that is because her size is kinda big..
she told me that, that's why lo..
she also feel that way actually..
but to me, i think that why should people like that leh?
big size, got any problem? also a human as normal people..
they also got their feelings.. why people still want to satire them?
i told her that, since that they satire her,
then she suppose to wear nicely, make herself perfect,
to show them..
let them admire instead of satire..
before class dismiss, teacher ask us arrange tables,
suddenly i was thinking, huh? why? for what?
then heard people say, oh, exam..
oh ya.. i forgot already.. since that i not yet start study..
after school, i was thinking want back or not,
because got a lot of people waiting bus, so sure will wait very long time..
but what else can i do in school?
how good if got 1 people can accompany me stay and study together then go back together..
hmm.. wake up Keat Hong.. don't dreaming.. none will do..
haiz.. everyday all back at same time, what can i do..
especially next week.. haiz..
when we waiting bus, we chat a lot..
especially with my "dad"..
then when in bus, normally i stand not so near them even take same bus with them eh..
today too..
but i heard that, his first ex, said something about him..
should i say it out here?
hmm.. no one will come here gua.. so never mind la..
hmm.. she said his bad thing.. and that time i was looking at her,
then SY give her signal that i am there..
then she turn his face look at me and say sorry,
i said never mind.. just move on..
but actually she don't have to say sorry to me,
because i am no longer his gf anymore,
i am just nothing to him already..
then she said it out...
but after listen that, they all feel very geli,
but i feel nothing... it's not a big deal..
don't know why.. just can accept what he do..
after that i was thinking that, why she like that..
she was also his gf before, sure got love him before, but why will say till like that..
why she not same with me, can accept all no matter is good or bad about him..
i was curious..
when back home, when my "dad" online, i ask her..
then my "dad"'s answer was make me feel kinda shock..
my "dad" said it is because, she was just play play at that time eh, not serious..
hmm.. i don't know it's true or not.
but before that, i heard my "dad" told me that his first ex told my "dad" eh things..
seem like not really loves him..
hmm.. why don't love but still accept him that time?
maybe what my "dad" said eh is true eh gua..
the bus driver's driving skill is terrible..
seem he didn't slow down then straight break eh.
all the time..
i was not stable..
and got 1 time i unable to balance and i fall..
luckily nothing happen..
how can let him be bus driver with his terrible driving skill???
SH ask me to go out with her and YN, to chat..
but she ask me go myself.. haiz..
she said or i take bus to MBS then she fetch me go..
hmm.. don't know la.. see how is my mood first..
well...
Keat Hong, please, forget about just now what u saw and know,
forget it, forget it, forget it, forget it, forget it, forget it, forget it...
and forget all the promises that he made,
no matter is made while still in relationship, or after break,
forget all please.. he won't make it come true anymore, this is what u know too..
hmm.... oh.... i hope i can, i want to, but i want is not equal to i can.. haiz..
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