need a hug

today was my first day ujian 2,
first paper was account..
while i am answering, i don't know how to do..
but then the question 2 part (a) i know how to do..
and i waste a lot of time to solve it..
all the jalan kerja i write it ad draf only,
because i scare not enough time,
and the question didn't ask to show jalan kerja,
so i just write out the thing that question ask for.. 
when i imbang it, i felt happy..
that was about 7 marks, times 2, is 14 marks..
then another 3 marks's question, i not sure..
but when at home, i saw the answer as teacher uploaded,
suddenly i felt like want to jump from a high building..
all the marks given was in jalan kerja.. 
the thing that i wrote out just get 1 mark..
and about the 3 marks' thing,
i got wrote it out in draf also..
i so hate myself why didn't write it in my answer paper.. 
total up about nearly 10 marks..
times 2, it's 20 marks..
actually i can get 30marks plus plus,
or maybe can pass also.. 
but then, i lost the 20 marks.. 
this is the first time i feel like wanna cry when teacher collecting paper..
and this is the first time i felt so sad till my tears in my eyes nearly comes out..
just because of account..
now, i know i should not think about it anymore and must focus on maths,
but i totally no mood to study anymore..
what i need now is, 
i need someone to console me, comfort me, 
or lend me his/her shoulder, 
or the best is give me a warm hug.. 
i hate myself for know how to do but didn't write it out and cause losing 20 marks....
I HATE MYSELF
and
I NEED A HUG ='(