22/8/11 HELP!!!

today morning, after he reach school, 
he still stay in car, what he doing? hmm...


about 7am, he went down, 
when we go for assembly, saw him with that lower 6 girl together..
just they both only.. i feel so hurt when saw that..
when at assembly field, he play with JW them, 
again, it makes me feel hurt..
i feel wanna to escape.. but where can i escape?
i turn around, but SH turn me back, and ask me must face it..


after we enter class, form teacher also enter, 
after that period, we will have 2 period of PA,
but luckily teacher didn't use 3 period..
the first period is assembly eh, so she let us do our own thing,
so i do my maths which i didn't do it at home..
suddenly she call me, so i look at her,
then she use her hand to make a "come" sign,
so i go out..
then she said "nothing, just i am writing your report book."
then she point to my account's mark,
ask "you sure this mark correct?"
i answered ya..
she then said all ok but that 1 not ok, 
and ask me don't let it fail.. 
because if all ok but got 1 fail, it's not nice already..
and ask me to make up my mind to tell myself that i don't want fail..
actually i also don't want fail, and i think no one want to fail also..
haiz.. 


recess time, after i ate, i went to library..
to inform teacher that i can't duty today because got something to do,
but will ganti on thursday..
then she said ok..
after that i saw YM them, then she also call me, 
then we talk about RC..
but what can i say is, RC SUCKS!!
i everytime also attend, i think i never absent,
but my attendance just 12 out of 18 only..
what the XXXX...
then i know that it is because they count the duties in..
activities less, and then count it in?
duty one time at most just 15 people, 
so no people will get full attendance, 
is that fair???
we join this is also want marks, now??
attendance mark are meant a lot, but now??
attend everytime and this is what we get??
because of to few activities so count duties in and makes we all can't get full marks..
tsk tsk tsk.. 
this is what u all do for us?
after that, i ask about the penglibatan marks,
then know that need cert.. 
no cert no mark..
hey please la.. 
then how about flag day?
no cert no mark?
flag day no cert, ya it's true, but no marks also?
then we go for what??
damn the teacher.. 
attendance suppose is full, now become just 2/3, 
become 33/50 marks only,
then penglibatan flag day no cert no mark, 
well.. 
so, what the hell i join RC?
hopefully i can get a satisfy's answer..


after that, i see still got time,
so i went back to canteen,
and i regret so much..
saw him with JW together.. 
after back to class, i saw her table exists something..
something which didn't exists in the morning but exists after recess if not mistaken..
something which he gave me last time also.. 
but i not sure about the truth, is it .................................?
morning after assembly saw that, i very down, 
but after that, i tried to make myself not so down..
but then after recess, i down again.. 
whenever i saw her table, i will feel so down.. 
actually he likes who? her? her? or her? who?


due to changing timetable, muet become last period, after account..
when she came in, she seem so rush..
then she ask class quiet because very noisy..
then that time i was telling CY something,
but she seem ignore what i said and keep ask about it,
so i use a louder sound to told her..
actually just few words only
but that time, teacher stare at me very fierce, 
then use a higher and loud tone and sound said
"CAN U KEEP QUIET PLEASE??!!!!"
i feel so sad about it.. 


after school, i go wait bus, got 201 but many people so i skip,
then continue wait...
i saw him drive leave school.. 
hmm.. be careful when driving ya..
after that got 202, so i back by it..
the sky was started to get dark..
we need to walk to air itam ler.. 
dear GOD, dear sky, dear cloud,
please don't rain....
but when we are on the halfway, 
rain a bit.. 
so bad..
but after a while, it stops..
we go and settle our things..
but so bad that mine 1 unable to succeed,
due to my IC's chip destroy already..
oh my god.. 
why play me like this?
u know it very important and urgent to me, u still play me like this..
so i have to go to do IC eh place to do something, 
then go back there to complete it..
just now when i reached home,
my leg hurt and pain.
because of slipper..
i said already, 
i don't know how to and also can't wear slipper eh..
i will walk till seem very weird and slipper will hurt my leg..
tomorrow my dad didn't work, 
but just now when mum ask him whether know do IC eh place at where or not,
he straight said "ask sis, she knows, ask her bring go.."
hmm.. he always like that eh..
everytime we need him to fetch us go anywhere,
he sure said can't eh..
but my bro said 
he saw that my dad look kinda abnormal when mum ask him fetch me go..
because he don't wanna leave mum stay at home without him,
he still not so believe mum yet..
but actually i also feel no an quan gan if he fetch me go..
but... wait...
who else can bring me go??
who will willing to do that??
urgent wor.. 
how????
haiz.. 
what can i do???
help!!!!