what i need...?

just now received a message, is from him..
hmm.. at school morning although all people see that i am sleeping,
but in fact, i am not..
i just feel bored and don't know what to do because reach school so early..
and no people accompany me.. 
so just lie on table.. because sleepy..
but i am not the kind of easily fall asleep.. 
after that his message, i received another, is from my sister..
that time my mum and sis was at hospital.. 
the message content was said about my dad..
suddenly bleed a a lot.. 
suddenly i felt scare and worry.. 
feel like wanna cry.. 
i really scare....
GOD... where are you.....??
we felt that the doctor is don't wanna let my dad stay at hospital anymore,
want to let my dad back home..
but how about the deep wound?
that is the reason they at there for so long time..
the doctor teach them how to wash it..
why my dad is serious but then wanna let dad back home so fast?
and a guy who has already recover, can still stay in hospital for so long time?
that guy try to steel my dad's things in the midnight when my dad was sleep tight..
hospital is not a safety place..
but in hospital only got doctor and nurse take care him.. 
if got anything happen, got doctor too..
if he back home, if suddenly he bleed unstoppable again, 
what to do??? we don't know anything..
why they so irresponsible? 
because of it is GH but not private??
i hope GOD really at everywhere, just like what he told me..
and i hope God will bless my dad to recover..
he asked what happen, i didn't tell the whole thing, i just said family thing..
it is because i know it's useless even i say.. 
he end up conversation with "cheer up" only..
i think if i tell the whole thing, he will also reply the same words..
i know he not really care all things which related to me..
if he really care, he will see what i wrote at here..
and, he don't know i very very need him a lot at that time...