bless him pls..

i miss my dad very much.. 
and i feel so worry.. 
from the day i back from relay for life, 
he already in the hospital..
till today, it's 5th day.. 
5 days i didn't see him.. 
tuesday night he operation, luckily it was successful..
cut of about 10cm x 10cm..
so deep.. sure very pain.. 
mum said from the starting, 
doctor just plan to 打麻醉药 for half body only when operation..
but then because of he got mental problem, 
so doctor decide to give for whole body..
when i heard that, i feel scare.. 
because last time mum said that her mother which is my grandmother,
is die because of doctor give too much 麻醉药 and cause unable to wake.. 
after operation, doctor said that my dad can back already..
but then it still so serious.. his wound need to wash.. 
they just simply ask go to clinic to wash it..
and we just have motors, don't have cars, how to go?
why they so irresponsible? 
when say want operation, but didn't, delay for so long time..
and now, say out these words..
another people is like nothing happen because recover already but still can stay..
and my dad so serious then they just ask my dad leave?
yesterday when i reach home, i saw joss is still burning.. 
and 南无观世音菩萨 keep on playing so loud..
i felt scare.. thought something happen.. but luckily just i think too much..
today, school dismiss at 1:45pm, 
i go out wait bus immediately,
but, well, i reach home at 2:45pm..
no transport is like that eh lo..
then after i ate, i sit in front of my computer,
i got feel that mum look weird today.. 
she just keep quiet.. 
after that, she ask me, want to know good news first or bad news first?
then i feel scare again.. i said bad news first,
then i saw her tears all gather in her eyes.. 
i know something happen, but i know she want to cry so can't say..
then she said wait she bath first then only tell me..
it made me more worry..
after that she tole me that, dad should operation for second time..
mum cried.. 
i cried too.. 
whyyyyy???? 
why does this happen????
God not around us? why God didn't bless my dad? haiz..
suddenly i think of what ah sam said that day..
he said that got a people, what what what.. 
it almost same like my dad case..
but the end, he said that people gone.. 
i felt very scare.. when i think of it, i cry again..
i don't want my dad same as that people.. 
no one will know.. i won't tell them.. 
i don't want they scare and worry more like me..
me enough already.. 
just now sister said no need operation for second time already..
but that is just 实习医生 said only.. not the real doctor.. haiz..
of cause i hope no need.. because it sure very pain and got risks too..
5 days i didn't see my dad already..
tomorrow school dismiss at 12:20pm, 
i plan mum take bus go there, then after school i walk to there, 
meet together then walk to GH..
but don't know enough time or not..
time for visit just 12pm-1pm only..
but just now mum ask me wear school uniform go? i said yup.
mum not allow..
then i said i bring clothes to school change,
but she not allow too..
she said too rush.. 
haiz.. 
dad, u must recover faster, and back home..
and all GODs, please bless my dad.. 
didn't bless me never mind, but must bless my family..
it makes me worry not only this.. but also my mum and my brother..
mum's glucose level very high.. might get diabetes.. 
but her both legs wounded.. if really get diabetes, then her leg....? haiz..
and my brother at university now, he fever..
then he went for doctor, but doctor told him that he got 胃炎 ..
if didn't control well, it might turn to 胃癌.. 
Ahhhh!!!!!!
why all this come??
i feel scare and worry but nothing i can do.. 
i need some comfort... T^T